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Overzealous?

My eye has been twitching for about two weeks now and I'm hoping it's just due to my serious lack of sleep. Since I'm too tired to finish my chores I'm gonna relax and unwind by writing. I'm glad blogger isn't like LJ because I feel like I have the freedom to just write my thoughts without being concerned about getting as many comments as possible. Those were the days...LJ. Aaron actually saved a couple of entries because we both wrote about each other when we first met and it makes us nostalgic to go back and see how thrilled we were to have met. Though we've always been like "Iron sharpening iron" the glue that has kept us together has been God and our...well...love for each other. It's crazy to think that we've only been married 4 years and been together 5! I was just reflecting today on what my life would've been like with my "ex" and I don't know if I would've truly gotten what I needed out of that relationship. Being only a teenager I thought that I would be most happy with someone who had almost identical interests but turns out that has absolutely nothing to do with compatibility! God knew I needed a man to put me in my place...so to speak. Aaron by simply just being himself has changed my character in many ways (for the better I believe). And fortunately theres more great change through Christ I'm sure. Things aren't perfect of course but more and more I feel that this man was made to be my husband. I'm definitely enjoying being a family and taking on this adventure of parenthood with him. Well I think thats enough mushy talk : p it's only 8 but I'm about to get ready for bed!

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