Let me be honest with myself

It's amazing to remember that around this time two years ago I was writhing in pain trying to cope pretty unsuccessfully with my labor haha. Two years later and that long day seems like a dream. I wanted to take the time to write down my birth story in celebration of Angel's second birthday : ) 8:30am 1/16/09 I woke up crampy thinking maybe I was having false labor but felt really giddy that it might be time to finally get rid of my giant belly! I knew the drill and ate breakfast and took a shower to see if things would stop. Aaron was getting ready for work because we thought he could use the hours since he was taking paternity leave. The cramps didn't go away so I called my sister and my mom it was about ten and they came over to help me time the cramps and see if it's the real deal. Sure enough my sister began timing rushes on her Iphone app and things were consistent. I called my midwife and she said things sounded good and to drink some wine and rest as much as I c...

"Praise the Lord! Happy are those who fear the Lord. They are not afraid of evil tidings; their hearts are firm, secure in the Lord. Their hearts are steady, they will not be afraid." (Psalm 112: 1a, 7-8a) As far back as I can remember I've been emotionally unstable. I kid you not I was the little girl who cried or eyes watered for everything! My ultra sensitivity made me a good target in school and helped alienate me from having friends. I can literally count with my hands how many friends I had from k-12. Growing older that instability manifested in more angry/impatient forms making my marriage not so enjoyable for my hubby (who already struggles with ADD). I've had to grow and struggle with myself while my husband was thrown into the mix and many times I was fighting/resisting him when really I was just exacerbating things. He has been so faithful to me it's almost as if he's represented Christ and His faithfulness to me. The other day we had a disagreement...