Let me be honest with myself

The Lord is God The Lord is true The Lord does not falter Who are we to say who God is and what He is capable of? It's amazing to me that our understanding and revelation of God comes from Him! I've met many people who don't get it. They don't get God. And I wonder "Why is it hard for them to see what is seemingly undeniable?". Time and time again God reminds me that He chooses us first. He determines what we see (spiritually speaking). I don't want to get into the debate of calvinism/predestination and all that, but I do feel that I'm being reminded of scripture. " This is what God the LORD says— the Creator of the heavens, who stretches them out, who spreads out the earth with all that springs from it, who gives breath to its people, and life to those who walk on it: “I, the LORD, have called you in righteousness; I will take hold of your hand. I will keep you and will make you to be a covenant for the peop...

I have to get this out to try and process what God has been speaking to me! I don't want to forget what my focus is. "I love those who love me; And those who diligently seek me will find me." Prov. 8:17 "Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind." Matt.22:37 Outside of prayer and meditation I rarely step outside of myself to see if I'm centered around Christ. When I don't take the time to pray at least once during the day I find myself being very fleshly driven. Easily angered, easily offended, focused on earthly things and not paying any attention to where my mind is going. The longer I put off pursuing the Lord the worse off I am. I allow myself to harshly judge friends/family, get annoyed with stupid things and ultimately alienate myself from Gods spirit. Not to mention all the sin that goes on in my heart the struggles that seem to overwhelm me. In the grand scheme of things this ridicul...

Wow it's been awhile! I haven't been on here because things got a little busy : ) I'm in school trying to figure out the route that God wants me to take and also trying to raise my energetic gorgeous daughter! As always things have been up and down but the Lord is always faithful and carries me through my bad decisions haha. I'm currently reading the ragamuffin gospel in my ladies bible study and it really has spoken to my heart about issues that I thought I understood (turns out I don't know jack, who woulda thunk?). The reoccurring theme in the book (like the bible) is grace. God's amazing, immeasurable, almost incomprehensible grace. Frankly grace has been a slap in the face for me. Grace has told me that I don't know everything and NEVER will, and that I should rest in faith instead of being frustrated with the Lord. (Isaiah 55:8 "For as the heavens are higher than the earth so are my ways higher than yours and my thoughts than your thoughts."...

You can have all your physical needs met but if you're dying spiritually you will NEVER find rest. It doesn't matter how many vacations you take or "get away" outings or even spa trips...you can feel yourself dying and theres nothing you can do about it. More often than normal I've been questioning why I believe what I believe; how it is that I can tell people "I believe in an invisible being and I talk to Him but it pretty much looks like I'm talking to myself oh and by the way He sent His "son" to this earth a couple thousand years ago to die for us and stuff". I've come to the conclusion that I'm crazy. I have to be...to believe what I believe. But that's okay I think. The people that I really look up to were seen as crazy John the baptist Paul the apostle JESUS oh let's just throw in the entire early church I'd go so far as to say if you're not prepared to lose your mind don't be a christian. Don't read t...

So my sociology class is awesome! Not the teacher really but the material is good stuff. It's opened my eyes to the possibilities in my future. I intended on becoming a nurse to become a supporter or advocate for midwifery but the more I'm looking into the role sociologists play the more I'm realizing that what I want to do is more sociological. For instance I've just spent the last hour looking up medical journals about the effects of midwifery being removed from hospitals on western society. I'm SO intrigued by all the studies that have been done and are being done in this area of the medical field. I love the idea of studying the effects of hospitals influence on women in american society and the questions of "Is pregnancy pathology or just a risk of pathology? Should pregnant women be treated as patients during their labor or should they have more control?" etc etc. For me the instinctual aspect of birth really drives me to want to study it further and...

Wow seems like someone pressed the FFWD button. My life has been moving fast, and it doesn't seem to be slowing down. This realization just makes me want to spend as much time with my husband and daughter as I can. Well where do I start? My church (Anchor church) has moved to a new building and more opportunities to serve have come up which has been exciting! One of the things I'm doing is singing in the worship band, it's seriously nerve wrecking because everyone in the band is good at what they do and I've never been the confident type! I'm just anxious to see the Holy Spirit freely move during worship and other members feeling compelled to edify our little group of misfits hehe. Aaron and I we're able to get away for the weekend and it was much needed! We went to dickens on the strand and had a blast *pictures coming soon* we'll definitely be returning next year. The B & B that we stayed at had some really nice people staying there and of course the o...

So I'm watching the revival in AL live right now and nathan told everyone watching to pray over themselves if they need healing. So I put my hand on my wrist cuz for about four years my wrist becomes inflamed if I lift things too often due to a job lifting heavy things. Anyway it has been hurting ALL week normally it's just for a day but it's been bothering me to where I can't sleep sometimes. So I laid my hand on my wrist and began to feel the pain just LEAVE...even now that I'm writing this I'm laughing with joy. I heard the spirit say "You're healed"! Thank you Lord for healing me!!!! Jesus is awesome! : D P.S. it's called Bay of the Holy Spirit Revival, my mom went a couple of weeks ago and saw a mute/deaf woman healed...amazing!